I’m so happy!! And scared at the same time! Here’s the story: after I spent 2 years of my life in a chastity belt, locked 24/7 (between 2008 and 2010), I had given up chastity life. Sure, I occasionally wear my belt, but not for longer than a day. I thought those days were over, and it was a long time ago. Until a fan offered to get me a custom made real NeoSteel belt as a very expensive gift! I had to think long and hard, because I did not want to give up my freedom once again, but I finally made the decision: I got a NeoSteel belt!! I am not locked into it 24/7 yet, as I need to build up my tolerance again (it is very hard to wear a chastity belt), but I have dedicated myself to training again, and I will build up to the level where I can give away the keys for at least 30 days, if not longer. Wish me luck and MERRY CHRISTMAS!! What have I done!!! Please let me know what you think about this decision!

So many people ask me about walking in leg irons! Yes, it can hurt if you do not practice enough. And you have to be very careful! The achilles heel changes shape when you are walking so don’t make them too tight or you won’t be able to move! I have seen people wearing boots and all kinds of protection, but I will prove it is just practice!! I will walk up lots of stairs of my nurse organisation’s office in leg irons and a waist chain, please study the video carefully!

A chastity belt and a straitjacket. I think it is a little bit too much, I couldn’t touch myself in the belt! Why the straitjacket?! Hahah, I’m just kidding, I love it! The more restraints the better! I love struggling around in a straitjacket and yes, you can see my belt clearly, but I don’t really care. Have a good look but don’t stare! Behave!

This new fiddle is quite heavy! It is a good size (maybe a little big for the neck but I can’t get out, don’t worry). It uses a different closing mechanism and I can not figure out how to open it! That’s quite bad because I am left here on the bed, with a key (or at least I think it is the key, some kind of tool), and I have to try to get out!! Horrible! It is heavy and uncomfortable! What if I can’t get out? I would have to sleep like this! Haha, well actually I love to sleep in fiddles, did it many times before, so don’t worry 😉

A member request! This black bondage tape is fun! I have had it for years, in pink and black, and there are many things you can do with it! It only sticks to itself, and not to hair, so it is perfect for gags! You wanted to see me gag myself with this tape so here we go! An open mouth tape gag for you! This was fun! Any more fun requests? Send them in!

Many years ago, I did an update about full chastity. In the recent years, chastity stuff has become much better (and better looking!), so I thought I would show you what I have at the moment. This is what I wear when I am not allowed to touch myself, not even my boobs. And since it is now getting colder in Holland, I can easily hide all this under my winter clothes! It is so much fun being on the train or on the streets wearing this under my thick warm clothes! I feel so safe and protected!

Bondage frame!! I love being forced into a position that you can’t get out of, especially if it has lots of metal and cuffs! This cuffing frame is awesome, I am ankle cuffed and handcuffed to it. My arms are behind me so I am forced to bend over. Very vulnerable! What if someone walked behind me? I couldn’t do anything! It is a little hard on the shoulders, but I am sure you will love this position too!! Try it at home!

A request!! I finally found leg irons big enough to fit around these big army boots I have! The only problem is, they are Irish 8 ones, so I can not move at all! I do love Irish 8 however, I should maybe go to Ireland one day to find out if their police really use them! Seems rather strict! I love it! My small Irish 8 handcuffs are probably my favorite cuffs in the world, I have spent more time in those than in any other cuffs!

My friend Roxanne has know about my bondage preferences for a long time! She is my friend and she will occasionally help me to stay in bondage (watch over me in dangerous situations, or hold the keys to my restraints or chastity belt). She is a dominant person I think. But lately she has been more and more interested in my gear, so I thought it was time to introduce her to a little bondage. What better way to start than a fiddle!! Fiddles are so much fun! And of course she needed to be gagged too. My red harness ballgag looks hot on her!

I was visiting an old asylum, but sadly there’s not much left of it. Still, I felt like it was very appropriate to wear a straitjacket and no shoes while I was inside! There was no one there, so why not! Okay, well there were a few people downstairs and there was a guy on the roof of the next building, they could have seen me. Maybe they did, but as usual, no one said anything! I love these white tiles and hard cold floors! I wish I could be in an asylum for a few months, I would love it! I’m already crazy, so why not! Whahaha!

I was visiting Roxanne at the huge office building where she works and I spotted this perfect wardrobe! Needless to say, we went back on another day (in the evening, when almost everyone was gone), and we had some fun with it! It is perfect for being cuffed!! I wish I had a wardrobe like this at home! You can even close the heavy doors! I secretly wish I would have been left there, only to be discovered by office managers the next day!!

I found my 3 kilo collar again! And this time a nut and bolt are locking it, which I can not open with my fingers! But never mind that, look at this awesome cage! It was custom built and once you are locked in, you can not get out without the use of a hex key. There’s no padlock or visible door when it is closed! My head poked through the top and my collar was locked to the cage with heavy chains. This cage is so small, even for me!! I just love metal!

Oooooh I got this new posture collar!! So I wanted to try it straight away! It’s very different, it has an actual chin rest! Which is great! I can not move my head at all, but at least my face can rest! I am also strapped in one of those armbag armbinders, they are very comfortable as well! You might say this is a very comfortable update!! Hmm, well, I have to be honest, the posture collar is a little big for me, so if anyone wants to buy it just contact me!

After so many updates, I always think it will be hard to come up with something new. But it isn’t! Fans send me the craziest stuff all the time! This week’s mysterious parcel contained a dental spreader plastic thingie! Wow this is a super effective gag! I couldn’t even talk! And the drool amount is massive! Massive!!!! It is crazy, I really need to train myself with this thing, because I love the extreme look and the helplessness! I hope you like it too!!

A real prison holding cell! I just had to email the people from CuffedInUniform.com to try it! I brought my own orange jumpsuit, RigidFiddle and ballgag! And they were a bit surprised, they thought I wanted to be handcuffed! But no!! A RigidFiddle is better to prevent me from removing the ballgag and I really wanted to be gagged the whole time! Which was about 6 hours. I know, it was a little short, but that was all the time we had 🙁 I really need to find a guy with a prison in his basement!

A new strappado opportunity!! I think one of the first strappados I did was tied to some stairs in my old house (bonus points if you can find the update on this site). Now, whenever I see stairs, I think about how it would be to have my arms raised high behind my back again! This time, my ankle cuffs are wrapped around the stairs so I can’t cheat and go up the stairs! It is really hard, but I love hard positions!!

After about 10 years of blogging, I thought it would be nice if you could see some of the faces behind the camera! My lovely friend Roxanne for example! She has been helping me for years, and we have know each other for ages! She is a bit camera shy and she always said she’d never appear on any websites, but here she is!! She’s lovely isn’t she! She is helping me today lacing me into a brand new white corset that was sent to me by a fan!! Thank you so much (you know who you are!!). Damn, Roxanne can lace really tight!!

Exciting!! Outdoors in my bra! What if anyone would see me like this? I can not do anything about it, because I am gagged and my thumbs are cuffed to a leather prison belt! There is no way I can even reach the belt buckle on my back! Thumbcuffs are so cool! They are even better on big toes of course, I might try that next time! I know a lot of you are also doing secret public bondage walks, I hope you are still doing them, the weather is great, and it is very exciting!!

Surprise!! I have a chastity bra now!! And it really is AWESOME! I decided to wear it all day yesterday, and I am already getting used to it! Sleeping will be very hard, but I am determined to train myself to sleep in it! It really goes well with my belt and collar don’t you think? It is the best feeling in the world to be locked in steel! Oh, and how about these cooool pantyhoses!! I received those from a fan!!! I’m so spoiled!

Aaah summer! Don’t you just want to go somewhere to sunbathe in bondage gear!? Well, I do! And it is getting pretty hard to do that these days, because people are always gossiping and looking. And you can’t be where kids are. And all that. Anyway, I found myself a nice little spot that doesn’t have too many people around. Some people looked at me, but no one said anything. I was in my bikini, leg irons, white leather cuffs, and a tall white leather collar. Because I don’t care… and it’s summer!!