I have always been seriously curious about spanking. And Roxanne too haha, but she is more curious about GIVING me a spanking! So we tried it, but Roxanne was not really sure how to do it properly. It hurts quite a bit, but it also feels good, which is very strange. It’s like bondage, when it is uncomfortable it feels really exciting. I don’t know! It was a strange experience, but I want more now! If you have any advice for Roxanne to learn to spank better, let us know!

A fan sent us dog scratch things! We don’t know what they are called, but we love them! They are really good, especially to prevent someone from taking out their gag. Me and Roxanne test out these fun things, and we handcuff ourselves to our collar to make it even more exciting! With our hands like this, it is really impossible to touch our face or our hair. Now let’s hope no one will get a funny idea and pour some water in our dog scratch things!

What to do on the last day of 2016? Well, I decided to finally get my revenge on Roxanne! She has been tying me up most of the time and now it is my turn! I know she is not really a sub, but I don’t care, she is going in the rigidspreader and I will ballgag her! The funny thing is, she holds one of the keys to my chastity belt, and I just know she will not even unlock my belt when I try to be dominant… Oh well, I had fun anyway! I wish you all a super New Year’s Eve and see you on the other side!

A special update for you today!! Because it is almost Christmas! It’s me and my friend Roxanne in straitjackets and white strap ballgags! I love red and white gags, it is so Christmassy! And they are also perfect for nurse play of course! I’m exicted about Xmas! Still wearing my chastity belt, have not been out for a few months now and my body is really getting used to it! I really hope to wear it for a long time, maybe even forever (although I don’t know if that is possible). My three keyholders are really strict, so there is probably no chance of getting out in 2016 anymore. I don’t even notice the belt now, so that is promising for 2017! We wish everyone a merry Christmas!!! Stay locked and gagged!!

A fan sent me this neck corset! Thank you very much! I never heard of a neck corset before, but I think it is pretty interesting! I tried it on and it is really restricting movement. I think it could be great combined with a ballgag and maybe a locking collar over the neck corset, so you can not take it off (nor the ballgag). That would be ultimately cool! It also looks very good I think, I could definitely wear this outside in the winter!

Inspired by a friend’s website, I really had to try a spread eagle again! And that’s a lot easier now that I have Roxanne, who loves to cuff me and leave me for a few hours! I like being helpless, gagged, and knowing there is no escape because I do not have the keys! This is very dangerous to try when you are alone, so please be safe! I know a lot of you fans are into self bondage! It is fun but be careful!!

What would life be like if you were ballgagged to another person, lips to lips, 24/7?! I don’t want to think about it, that would really suck! I love Roxanne but this is going too far, I think! We tried, but we definitely couldn’t stay like this for a long time. We can’t even sleep like this! I can sleep ballgagged after years of training (don’t try that at home), but Roxanne can not, she has only been gagged a few times!! Still, it is pretty hot to be stuck in an eternal kiss!

Raaaaaaaaaaaaawr! I’m a panther! Or leopard. I don’t know exactly what I am, but I love it! It is a tight spandex catsuit which covers everything, even the hands and feet. There are eye holes and a mouth hole, that’s it! With a thick leather collar locked over it, I can not even take it off. I’m pet Gina! Who wants to have a pet Gina? I love pet play!

It is really getting more and more tough to be in the chastity belt. I am barely getting through the day sometimes, a girl has needs too!! Maybe it was easier years ago, but I think I may be too horny at the moment. The belt is often completely wet on the inside, and I have to take a shower to clean it. It is a lot of work! I am getting more and more stressed. Roxanne is one of my 3 keyholders, and she sometimes gives me a massage, but I think I am about to give up! Do you think I should give up?

The fan who sent me this custom made NeoSteel belt has asked me to take a lot of selfies regularly, to prove I’m still wearing it. Well here is a collection of those selfies and even a few pictures of me going shopping in the belt. I am locked into this belt 24/7. There are 3 keys, all held by different persons. They help me every day to take my daily break (only 1 break per day for toilet – big one / number 2 – and shower). I can pee in the belt and even showering will be no problem soon, I am really getting used to it! Actually I feel VERY weird if I am out of the belt. I will try to break my old record of 2008-2010: no touching myself, no orgasms for over 2 years! I can do it!

Roxanne told me she is not that flexible. So I made her a bet. I said she could easily be cuffed at her elbows with a pair of short hinged cuffs. Roxanne said there was no way she could do that! Of course, I was right, although it was not easy for poor Roxanne, it was her first elbow cuffing ever. Or at least, her first one that was this tight! By the way, I gagged her during this bet, I don’t know why, so don’t ask me hahah, I guess I just automatically assume a gag is needed for these kinds of things.

I have always wanted to experience pet play! Roxanne seemed to be up for it, so I was very happy! A very happy puppy! I can lots of tricks you see. I can roll over, play dead, and even fetch things. Well I don’t think Roxanne is a very strict or good trainer, and I would prefer to find a good Master, but then again, I have been looking for a Master for over 10 years now. Maybe it is better to play with Roxanne once in a while!

Everyone knows I try to make my life more interesting with self imposed rules. I am not allowed to watch tv or use a computer without being gagged and cuffed. My fans know that if I email them back, that email was written in gag and handcuffs at least! It’s pretty exciting! I also try to do most household chores in restraints, because that is really the only way to actually do them. Doing the dishes is just too boring, and I would never do it if I couldn’t make it somehow a little bit more exciting!

I have tried this thing a few times already, and I love it so much!! I wish I owned one, but they are too expensive. But I got to borrow it again for a few days, so I really wanted to spend a lot of time in this device! I just love how I really can not do anything when I am locked in this! It is impossible to escape and I can’t move! I love it love it love it! x

I told Roxanne I was feeling a little stressed. It’s this chastity belt. After my 2 year wearing period in 2008-2010, I swore never to wear a chastity belt again. And all of you (fans) kept asking me, begging me even… until one fan bought me a NeoSteel. Custom made for me. And I couldn’t resist. So now I am locked in the belt again, but I don’t think I will ever break my old record. I’ve only been belted for 3 months and it is very hard. Roxanne (who has one of my keys) always comforts me and gives me massages. Which I really need very badly!! Super stressed at the moment. I hate AND love my belt!

Playing darts is not easy, I’m really bad at this game. But playing darts handcuffed AND leg ironed to a friend is even harder! First of all, we are both right handed, so Roxanne has to throw with her cuffed hand (which is attached to my left wrist). And after every 3 darts, we have to walk to the board TOGETHER (even if it wasn’t my turn) to get the darts. We have to coordinate everything! Very hard, especially since we are already very bad at playing darts. Maybe next time you want to join us in a friendly game?

This would be my perfect life! In prison, wrists cuffed and ballgag (unable to remove ballgag). Such a dream life! I wish this was possible 24/7! I really need to find a rich guy who can support me (so I don’t have to work) and who can afford a private prison in the basement. I wouldn’t need anything else! Just this life! Please someone do this to me forever!!!!

Thanks all for your lovely questions and requests about my NeoSteel chastity belt! I am still locked (all three keys are with Roxanne currently), and it is going very well. I can use the toilet with the belt on. I can sleep, eat, run, drive a car, and go to work. No one seems to notice my belt. But I still need cleaning breaks, so I am allowed to take it off for a good shower and clean once a week, because otherwise infections and irritations might start to develop!!

OMG we received a double ballgag! So much fun! It’s basically two ballgags riveted together! So when you are gagged with a friend, you really are very close together! Actually our noses were touching! It is very hard to move, because I didn’t want to hurt Roxanne, and getting up or sitting down requires a lot of coordinating. Which is hard if you can not talk. Remember, only try this if you are VERY good friends!

A lot of fans have emailed me about my new NeoSteel belt. Yes, I am trying to stay locked (hopefully forever from now on) and no, I don’t have the keys. Roxanne has the keys at the moment. There are 3 keys, she has all of them, but maybe I should only let her have 1 key and distribute the other 2 to other people or places. Male and female fans have asked me how I can sleep in my belt. I do not understand this question. I mean, you just sleep. My belt is a super perfect fit, and it is very comfortable, I can do anything in my belt, including sleeping. Good night!